No, you should not feel wrong about being on disability. You should feel relieved. A system — one you paid into — is finally doing something right. It supports you when you need it.
You didn’t ask for multiple sclerosis. You didn’t fake it. You didn’t cheat anyone. You’re not lounging on a yacht with taxpayer money. You’re managing a chronic illness that affects your body and mind. It influences your day-to-day life in ways most people will never understand.
Disability isn’t a handout. It’s a safety net. And guess what? That net is there because people like you exist. You worked. You contributed. And now the system is doing its job. It helps you stay afloat when you can’t operate like you used to. That’s not shameful — that’s justice.
It’s okay to be grateful the government is doing something good for a change. It’s okay to rest. And it’s okay to not be okay. The point of disability support is to help you live. It is not to guilt you into suffering more.
So no, you shouldn’t feel guilty.
You should feel deserving. Because you are.